Dilema

Need my own place, need my own shelter
I've come this far just to realize my scars.
You've held me high, too high I won't come down
You tried to erase my pain, my tears
Thinking of a coward I point myself
a battle inside, no more courage
You accepting while I'm drowning in my own thoughts, dilema
Too afraid to having, and to let go
Where's the power I have all this time?
I'm pointing a zero in my heart, not brain
Hard to believe and to see, that's what they say
and I'm having a fight, versus myself, here in my head.