When I'm not there

While I'm here

standing right behind you

with my palms against your back

waiting for the right time

to catch you when you fall

to push you when you get to far behind

Now, you know me

as a person that gives her live away

sweeping a thousand smiles, just like that

I'm up here now

wishing you a happiness and luck

wishing that you won't fall or left

even when I'm not around

I can see the world are giving me signs

when you're glancing at me

tears that can't be held when you whisper your prays

in your room, crying secretly

feel numb outside and pain inside, alone

When I'm not there.. when I'm not there..by your side...

Old days

Every seconds, minutes, hours you past

every moment, and emotions

everything you say

every little thing you do

they are what you are  made of

peeled aside the reality 

leave nothing, but pain

When the sorrow comes

and you're lack of balance

no one to embrace, no one give a damn

you're crying, behind your sleeves

the restless youth

your, restless youth, been wasted

No turning back

regrets are all over you

only resignation and hope left

give it your all

even when others are starting to step

no hard feeling

no envy

Hold tight, and step forward

Empty

When you got things in your mind

and you wonder how to get it out,

would you spend your time

and spit it out to me?

I keep looking for the right time,

till the moon comes out

and time freeze me, 

I got goosebumps, and my feeling's not well

I plead to nothing, 

I tell stories to the wind,

feels so empty,

nobody around, again..

keeping my imaginary friend by my side,

no warmth, no comfort, no satisfaction

without you, without you,

I keep telling it's okay, 

without you around..

Until now, you never know

it's a lie.